Zastels

Feb 4th, 2024

It was Saturday the 3rd of February, my first day disconnected from the sap.

I am a philosopher, I will walk and talk. I cannot solve problems any longer with maps or words. I have placed upon myself restrictions. I live a life of the 1990's. The restrictions are largely internet based, I can only use it in a limited way. I can upload Youtube videos, but I cannot read the comments or interact with anyone.

This is a journey is stripping myself down to the essentials in life, so that I can master mapping in the same principle. I want a shelf to stand tall, white, and clean, devoid of objects. I want my shelf to represent order I have established.

I enjoy very much thrifting for old movies and music cd's. Blu-rays are $1 each and although not from the 1990's, they serve as an interesting comparison against the other existing mediums. I have a profound admiration and appreciation for all mediums, the cassette, vinyl, cd, the gas lamp, the incandescent bulb, the cooler of ice, a fire, a sauna, a tanning booth -- silent movies.

I seems I can't find a CD from the 1990's at a thrift store that isn't beautiful. Some are just burned with handwriting. I have a clear understanding from consuming this content now why we are spiraling out of control.

Nothing is cool anymore. Cool is an important word. If something stays cool, it has a profound influence on its economic value and cultural impact. This word cool is not really easy to do.

The first time I have felt cool since my childhood was today, I sat on my porch and had a different frame of mind. I simply didn't care about what I used to, I was somehow already greatly changed. I felt cool because I was no longer bracing for a wave, but looking to ride one. Whatever comes my way, cool.